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Two Poems by Jeffrey “J.A.” Faulkerson

AGENT OF CHANGE

During the Winter
Of your discontent
You crave
The warm embrace of Spring,
Knowing it will fade away to
The scintillating heat
Of Summer
But you need not worry.
No!
Because you know
Every hot Summer
Gives way to the
Coolness of Autumn

But as the seasons change,
So do you.
You think
You feel
You do
You ask yourself,
“Who am I?”
“What is my purpose
In life?”
When you ask these questions,
You expect a response,
But none is given

Poverty often denies you access
To prosperity
Each time, she asks,
“Can you spare a dime?”
You look into her blood-shot eyes,
And your shared silence becomes
A clarion call

You hear voices,
Those of the great African kings
Speaking to you
You hear the rhythmic beat of drums,
Encouraging you to dance
This is your moment,
Your chance to shine.
But do you change or
Do you remain the same?

Heroes have come.
Heroes have gone
But now you are being asked
To be something more
No one is asking you
To change the world
Change a life
And bear witness to the
Rippling effects
Of your sacrifice

 

THE WISE MAN SAY

Move forward then upward,
That’s what the Wise Man say
He said do this daily
And you won’t lose your way
But that’s just what you did
In the Spring of eighty-eight
For you found yourself carrying
A tremendous weight 

Dreams of Olympic glory,
Adoring fans calling your name
But your ailing body
Disqualified you from the game
You had to find something different,
Something new
You had to behave differently
To say that you grew

But grew you did
You had no choice
First in your family
To heed the Wise Man’s voice
His voice was loud,
His voice was clear
You felt his presence,
Drew the invisible him near

Clouds of doubt, uncertainty
And regret hovered overhead
Sinking feelings that could only
Be described as impending dread.
You know why this feeling
Inhabits your soul
Anxiety, depression,
Taking a toll

Roll, Daddy, roll
Like never before
Step into a future
That is bright, not a bore
Forward then upward
The Wise Man say
To keep this train a moving
You have to bow your head,
pray

Pray for blessings
From the man seated on high
When you receive these blessings
You aren’t supposed to cry
But when you do
Reflect on the road traversed,
Receiving the many blessings,
Never believing you were cursed

The Wise Man stands on the horizon
Marveling at all you have done
To overcome obstacles
To stand in the sun
He winks his eye
Only you can see
You bow at the waist
Thanking him,
Then God,
For this victory

At the apex of Achievement
You gain wisdom and sight
For you now know obstacles
Are there for knowledge, might
But you must extend your hand
To the hungry, the lost
Pull them up gently,
Remove them from the frost

black man in a salmon colored polo shirt who is bald and has a graying beard at the Green Hill Winery in Middleburg, Virginia

J. A. Faulkerson, a Northern Virginia-based author, poet, and screenwriter by night, moonlights as a fatherhood engagement coordinator by day. His poetry pays homage to the Black leaders of the Civil Rights Movement of the 1950s and ‘60s, individuals he calls compassionate neighbors led by the unconditional love and neighborly compassion. A graduate of Dobyns-Bennett High School (Kingsport, Tennessee) and the University of Tennessee (Knoxville, Tennessee), J. A. has been happily married to his wife for over 32 years and is the proud father to his 21-year-old son. Follow J. A. Faulkerson on Instagram. Subscribe to his newsletter, “Writers’ Bloc with J. A. Faulkerson.”

Featured image: “A Collection of Ethiopian Liturgical Drums” by A. Davey under the Creative Commons Attribution 2.0 Generic license.

Blue Fading to White by Teresa Burns Murphy

Blue Fading to White

A wintry wind blew
the color out of the sky that day
‘til it was as white
as my cousin’s corpse
contained in a coffin
inside the church sanctuary. I recalled

another day, sunlit sky sparkling
blue. I sat among family and friends,
remembering him,
not as a man, grown grim,
gun aimed at his own heart,
but how he glowed as a boy,

glistening skin tanned a ginger-
snap brown when he raced
across the high dive,
landing with a crash,
before vanishing under water
at the deep end of the pool.

 

Teresa Burns Murphy is the author of a novel, The Secret to Flying (TigerEye Publications). Her writing has been published in several places, including The Bookends Review, Chicago Quarterly Review, Doubleback Review, Evening Street Review, Gargoyle Magazine, Literary Mama, The Literary Nest, The Opiate, The Penmen Review, River and South Review, Slippery Elm Literary Journal, Southern Women’s Review, Sparks of Calliope, Stirring: A Literary Collection, The Word’s Faire, and The Write City Review. She earned her MFA from George Mason University and her EdD from the University of Memphis. Originally from Arkansas, she currently lives in Virginia. Visit her at https://www.teresaburnsmurphy.com

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Two Poems by Mary Stone

These poems are published as part of the Amplifying Disabled Voices special section, selected by editors Christopher Heuer, Marlena Chertock, and Gregory Luce.
 

Wry-Necked Diptych

Wring, wrang, wrung. My mother’s girlhood chore, to kill
the dinner chicken. She longed for the city. When she got
to her city, she longed for the hens and sisters left behind.
Don’t cross your eyes, she warned, they might get stuck.
But gave no warning of indecision’s perils.
How they can wrench a neck, distort a voice, contort
a body perpetually. Some days I want to holler. Get back!
I warn my son who clambers dangerously close to the bow.
But only gravel bits spill out. Only one whale spotted
off the coast of Santa Barbara that day, despite the captain’s
zigging and zagging. Can a curandera heal my neck? She
sings, offers fresh-squeezed juice, shows me how to bury
roadkill using gloves and shovel she keeps in her trunk.
Lie on the bare earth, she instructs. Eat wild strawberries.

My neck wasn’t swan-like, but it was cooperative,
capable of doing what I asked: holding up my head,
allowing walnuts and tea to transit unobstructed
to my gut, housing the apparatus of my speech
and song. In triangle pose, it turned my face toward
the sun, stayed strong and straight in a headstand,
however brief. Without wilt or droop, it meditated.
One day, a turning of my neck to the right. A jerk,
a bobble, a twist. Wry neck, wrenched, wrung. No
longer mine to control. Some days, even my voice
is silenced. An effort now, to hold my head up,
level, facing forward. To heal what can be healed,
which is not this dystonic neck. What words to sing
to this body? To the dimmed lights ringing it?
 

On Stoicism

Angling for green beans, I cut a woman
off with my shopping cart. She looks
like the neighbor whose son was shot
by officers in the woods behind my house.
Older than her age. Sorrow on her face,
or resignation. Anger, too. The scowl,
the hunch. If I had a gun, I’d shoot them,
that neighbor threatened when my dogs
escaped the unlatched gate. The beans
look good
, I will a smile as I speak, then
apologize for the danger of me: blundering
like a flounder, neck torqued, left eye,
a blank. We all have something, she says,
and I sense how heavy hers must be.

A former biomedical writer, Mary Specker Stone lives in Scottsdale, Arizona, where she practices as a certified spiritual director and leads poetry salons. Her poetry has appeared in Image, Mom Egg Review, RockPaperPoem, Gyroscope Review, and other journals. Her chapbook, Valentine’s Dinner at Wren & Wolf, was published by Finishing Line Press in 2024. For thirty years, Mary has lived with dystonia, a rare neurologic disorder that causes involuntary muscle contractions and painful, uncontrolled movements in her neck and vocal cords.

Featured image in this post is, “A Chicken Running, 2009″ by Alvesgaspar – licensed creative commons via Wikimedia Commons.

Gentle by Abigail Carver

This poem is published as part of the Amplifying Disabled Voices special section, selected by editors Christopher Heuer, Marlena Chertock, and Gregory Luce.
 

Gentle

I’m gentle with him. He’s fully recovered from his latest surgery and says I don’t need to be so
gentle and I wish I could tell him I’ve had a surgery very similar to his and I wish sometimes that
people were more gentle with me. But his job is to be vulnerable and mine is not. No – his job is
to be whatever he wants to be, whatever he wants me to think he is and mine is to be a very
specific thing for him without even asking and making it seem completely spontaneous.

He’s smaller than me and I do what I can not to bring attention to it. Some men aren’t bothered
by the height difference but I can tell he is and it makes me sad for him. He’s nice, maybe even
too nice and he’s not attractive enough to be anything other than an asshole to me for me to be
even slightly turned on. But I know he won’t be into this arrangement for very long because at
the moment I’m too big and my hair is too short and he is only with me when he is weak and his
money has been spent on medical bills and so I take what I can and so does he.

Abigail Carver is a Florida born, Los Angeles based musician and writer.

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Being Well is Not by Maria Lightwood

This poem is published as part of the Amplifying Disabled Voices special section, selected by editors Christopher Heuer, Marlena Chertock, and Gregory Luce.

Being Well Is Not

Binary
You consider this, munching on handfuls of nicotine gum.
What with cells and their porous membranes—
boundaries undefined.
“How are you feeling?” the doctor asks.
“I’m fine, thanks…” off your tongue—reflexive words leap,
like a fawn that won’t see the car
till it’s too late.

What he doesn’t know can’t hurt
him—only you and your disability forms:
you tick the box.
“Out of 10, how well are you?”
You’re back in math class again, wrestling with an unsolvable sum.
What’s the right answer? Observe:
Porous membranes grow thick—defined edges like boxes
we must tick—be quick—
the appointment is only 10 minutes.

Your migraine returns, the paperwork doubles,
seeing everything in two. Two of you:
is “well-you” and “unwell-you” the same?
The ‘varying’ box you’d tick—
if it existed—
but it doesn’t, not in public.

Bad days, zero-spoon days,
‘none-to-scrape-the-ground, to-dig-yourself-out’ days.
But if you do—discounted,
when someone sees you do one thing.

Panopticon. Surveillance—
more monitoring than your bloods get.
And you’re deficient in plenty—
neutrophils, for starters,
to protect—work so hard, they’re running out—
the poor things don’t know they can’t
protect you from the outside
when “outside” is a box to tick.

And if the tick-box is wrong,
there’s a bigger box they’ll sit you in.
 

Maria Lightwood is an autistic, ACE funded writer and disability advocate. Her novel-in-progress, Fractured Tadpoles Grow in the Dark, was shortlisted by Curtis Brown Creative. She has been awarded a place on ITV’s Mentoring Programme and the National Centre for Writing x TLC Free Reads programme. Her flash fiction Sleeping Dogs Lie in Fetal Position received an Honourable Mention in the CRAFT Flash Prose Prize, judged by Meg Pokrass. Maria’s work is shaped by lived experience of multiple disabilities, a refugee and poverty background, and estrangement following a violent upbringing. With no family safety net, she is building a life through writing— with the ambition to redefine disability representation in literature. Most recently, she became a Lead Author for an upcoming feature on Disabled Leaders, published by the Disability Action Research Kollective (DARK), a prominent disabled-led radical publication. She is also contributing to an ACE-funded Reflecting Realities project, and was selected for the CRIPtic x Spread the Word Salon with Cathy Reay.

Featured image in this post is, “Penetentiary Panopticon Plan” By Jeremy Bentham – licensed creative commons via Wikimedia Commons.